Today’s the day we bury Ben. So many things run through my head on all of this..as in just under 2 hours I’ll be getting to the church preparing to somehow apply God’s word to wounds that are deeper and wider than can be fathomed.
Last night, I stood at his casket, hands on the side, and looked at the shell that was his body. His spirit is gone….. in the casket there were a couple cans of kodiak, a pair of racing goggles, a cross blessed by the pope that Big Ben got for him, a racing magazine, a letter from his sister, a toy motorcycle, and a couple other articles.
2 hours later, I was at Jason’s house, peering over into little Grayson’s crib. His eyes wide open, stairing at the puppy toys rotating above his head. it’s like he was just taking everything in…
And I knew that back some 17 years ago, Ben was in a place just like that.
And that last Tuesday, Ben’s wide eyes were opened for what seemed like the first time to him…like that baby, he was a newborn in the kingdom of God….seeing things he couldn’t have even dreamed.
1 Cor. 15:19-”And if our hope in Christ is only for this life, we are more to be pitied than anyone in the world.”
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its was nice to meet your words were very helpful to Ben and his family Ben and his family i know only time will heal there pain but in a way i feel there pain and i hope they stay strong
Comment by taylor overeem September 22, 2008 @ 7:01 pmWas at your service Sunday for my son could not attend. The Geiger families loss has hit Taylor pretty hard. We appreciate your faith, guidance and assurance that everything will be alright. The days of peering over a crib watching Taylor babble and cooo seems as if they were yesterday. I feel for the Geiger families loss and will continue to keep them and others in our prayers. Sherry McNees
Comment by Sherry September 22, 2008 @ 11:58 pmi never thought that someone who i barely knew could be so much on me i pray that some how ben and his family can make it through this strong
Comment by taylor overeem September 23, 2008 @ 9:30 amBig John and Rachel: I haven’t forgotten the kindness you each showed to us when Ben left this world to be with Jesus. We are, as you can imagine, still grieving the loss of our beloved Ben, but we (or at least) I find comfort in knowing he was loved by so many, many people. His smile remains in my mind, and in my heart. Thank you both so much.
Ben’s Grandmother – MeMaw
Comment by Sally February 23, 2009 @ 6:17 pm